My Problem? Not Consistent Enough

Image by Dalboz17 via Flickr Yeap, I think one of my major drawbacks, the one think that holds me back is that I am not consistent enough in what I am doing. It is not enough to want to do or achieve something..You also have to actually sweat to get it done!
Me? Lazy, inconsistent, tend to lose my courage and motivation pretty quickly. Sometimes, getting something done can be a struggle.So, I have to work on my birthday resolutions. Explanation: I don't do New Year resolutions, but birthday ones. For me, everything started the day I was born, so why the first of January? So each year I do a sort of list of things I want to work on the next year of my life, as well a a list of things that happened in the current year, projects I finished, stuff like that...I am not young any more, I am running out of time, so I have to think and act quickly. Because, oh boy, I want to do so many more before I die!
I won't say I will achieve 100% of what I would like to, but on my priority list I have my writing and my girl. To finish my first fiction novel and to get Maya evaluated for ADHD. Because I have a hunch she may have got it. So, no easy way out for me and these ones. Lets keep our fingers crossed.

Busy, Busy, Busy...and Some Raindrops

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I have so many projects going on that I hardly have time to think. That is good, because being so busy means I cannot think to all the things that depress or sadden me. And because I now you are curious about my projects, I'll tell you.
First of all, I try to put together a book of poems, songs and finger-plays in Romanian, for Maya. There is a mommy forum in Romanian where some great mothers had posted their children's favourite poems, songs or stories. There are some on the net, also. I copied a lot of them and now I am in the process of editing the text and adding clip art and pictures. I really want to make it pretty and then be able to read it with my daughter. We don't have many story books in Romanian here and I don't want Maya to forget her mother tongue, so I try to do my best with what I have. This is the most urgent project as I want to finish it as soon as possible.
My husband bought me a laminator and now I want to prepare Maya some worksheets and board games, as I can laminate now everything and this way I don't have to print the same page all over again.
Then, as you know, I am writing a novel...I try to write every night, no matter how tired I am. I know how easy it is to find excuses, so...I am not doing it...I also have to do a lot of research for my book, so I am reading everything I can put my hands on.
Between all this I have to mind Maya, to teach her, play with her...we pretty much do everything together because she likes to "help"...And you know about the "help" of 4 year olds....but I have to encourage her, so I endure everything for her sake...I am not complaining! As long as she's healthy, I am happy...
Not to forget I am a SAHM, so I am doing all the housework by my myself, although here I cheat a lot...well, you win some, you lose some... I am not a big fan of cleaning, cooking and stuff, so I find lots of excuses to postpone them.

But for a moment I want to forget about all this craziness, because today it happened something amazing.It rained! Well, you can laugh as much as you want, but believe me, for us Israelis, rain is manna from Heaven. It doesn't usually rain during this month, the raining season being over, so a true, real rain was a treat. As I went out before it started and I didn't have an umbrella, I enjoyed every cold, wet drop that slithered along the back of my neck. I was soaked when I arrived home, but the feeling was "I am singign in the rain" one...

Thank you God, for these precious moments and for the special people in my life!