Pour Your Heart Out Wednesday - Am I Invisible?

I am so glad it is Wednesday, because it is "Pour Your Heart out" at Shell's blog, and this is what am I going to do today. I gave Maya lots of toys to play with and I hope she'll leave me alone until I finish this post....Because, oh boy, I do have a lot in my heart and I just want to get rid of it...
So, here it goes...
I think that lately I am invisible...I mean, nobody answers my e-mails, nobody writes me e-mails out of the blue, you know, the "Just a quick note..." type. Nobody wants to befriend me on Facebook or follow me on Twitter...People forgot about me, my virtual bloggy friends had better things to do...Oh, this blog and all this virtual malarkey brought me so much joy! But now, it is only dissapointment...Nobody even reads this blog, no comments or suggestions, nada...as if they all deserted me...as if I went invisible...I guess they all got bored by my cramped style, by my long strings of problems, pesimism and such. I know I was and continue to be stuck in a rut lately. Well, I've been a staying at home mum for four years and it drives me bonkers. We had a very difficult year with Maya being very sick twice and all the tests and MRI's and CT scans and hospitals and doctors and late night visits to the ER and high fever and....it was such a difficult year, believe me...to be on duty 24/7, no matter what...I still get up at night to check if my daughters breaths...I know she is fine now (knock wood) and it is time for me to move on. But I CAN'T...Not alone, not invisible...I need my virtual friends back...Maybe I did somethink wrong, maybe...I don't know...My posts haven't been lately what they used to be. I guess I'm pouring all my inspiration in the novel I am writing. Because, no matter what, I continue to write. Each and every night, until my vision blurrs, until may head hurts. After Maya goes to sleep, it is only me and the white pages (and the ocasionally internet search).
I know I am not a funny person, I mean, I don't write funny posts, nor inspirational ones. I don't do giveaways...well, I gave you my heart and look what you did with it...I don't do crafts or worksheets. MAybe I should.Maybe that's the secret of having a lot of friends and comments...
Anyway, if you do care, tell me please what I did wrong. If you are still my friend, give me a ssign. I really need you to help me become visible again...
That's it. I told you everything that bothers me, the things that hurt me most. The ball is in your hands now...

I am linking this post to Shell's "Pour Your Heart Out Wednesday". I know I did...