Saturday, March 26, 2011

The Lessons My Daughter Teaches Me


The past couple of days went in a haze...we had one more alarm, on Thursday morning and one horrific terrorist act in Jerusalem, where a bomb exploded in a bus station, killing an English citizen and wounding dozens.


In all this madness, I am amazed by my daughter, I really am. On Tuesday night when we had the alarm I had to get out barefoot - I panicked so much that I couldn't find my slippers , I also couldn't find any sweaters or jackets . Believe me, it is not very peachy to stand outside your aparment on a cold March night in your nightgown together with your equally tired and confused neighbours. So Maya decided we need to be prepared. She aligned her Crocs and my flip-flops, asked me to take out some warm clothes from the closet "just in case", put on her Ben 10 cap and tied a couple of toys with sellotape onto their craddle ("not to fall off when we take them out, in case of alarm"). I kissed her like crazy and cried a bit so she asked me if it is because I am afraid of the bombs and so I cried more...My God, and she is not 5 years old yet...Why does she have to know about terrorist acts and bombs and alarms? Is this the world she is going to live in? I am not going to write about politics and stuff like that on my blog because I don't think I could be an objective writer and that is not fair for my readers. I am only a lonely mother trying to keep her daughter safe...Maybe she'll be all the things I am not and maybe she'll be the one to change something. I canonly guide her and surround her with my love and stay up at night worrying...


I can only teach her the values I think are important in life and let her teach me the wisdom of childhood.


I pray to God to give me strenght to be the pillar my daughter needs me to be...


3 comments:

Sharnanigans said...

Oh Ramona, that is beautiful, yes at times of fear (and I do hope the situation improves for you over there, must be scary) it is good to look to our children. The simple way they see the world I think we can learn from, all our fears and worries are learned and when we are children we see things without these learned things that do us no good. You are blessed to have her, and her you. Stay safe xx

Hevel said...

Children are more composed, natural and braver than us, it seems.

Alone in Holy Land said...

I do agree with you, guys...
Thanks for your beautiful comments!