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First of all, with Maya going to the kindergarten, it just threw me off balance completely. I didn't know my sanity depended so much on the routine I had with my baby. In the mornings, when she's gone, I cannot find my place, and I just surprise myself staring at the computer's monitor without actually seing anything or forgeting that I have to cook her lunch. When she's home from kindergarten, after I give her a bath as she is always filthy I check her over, and every day I observe a new scratch or bruise, a new bite mark. Up to today she's been bitten a few times by a fellow kindergartener, she is blue and yellow on different parts of her body, her kneew started healing but are still badly scratched, her hair is always full of sand and because she had a runny nose, the last two days she had snot smeared all over her face. They pay little attention to things like this at her kindergarten and we're lucky that at least she is able to pull up her underwear after going to the toilet, otherwise she'll be running with a bare bottom...
This, and all kind of stuff I won't mention just made my week a bad one. At least tomorow is Saturday and I hope on Sunday things will look better. They had to. I had enough of felling sorry for myself. I feel I have to do something, I cannot stay and complain about my crappy life until...until what? Nobody is going to solve my problems, nobody is going to do anything for me. Well, not if I'll pay them to do it (just kidding). So I've decided no matter what, I'll start making changes. Small ones, nothing too dramatic, nothing to scary. And I'll start with sports. Before Maya, I went to the gym almost every day, for one or two hours. I had aerobics lessons, yoga, pilates, it was a lot of fun. When I was pregnant, because my high-risk pregnancy, all kind of physical activity was a big "No-No". After Maya was born, I didn't have time, then money and so on...But no more excuses. I have tons of DVDs with all types of workouts, including yoga and I have my eliptical machine we use now as a stand for hanging clothes on it...And I also think some yoga with Maya would be nice, as I have the "Yoga for Kids" DVD series. I know it will all do me good, we know about the hormones that the body produces during workouts, don't we?
So, it is all settled now. No more moping around. Good bye depression, hello good mood! (I'll see to that and I'll also keep you posted)
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3 comments:
Wish you luck with your (new) good mood. Kids have to have a life of their own. The main problem with you - mothers - is that you are overprotective. Leaving kids to themselves does not mean ignoring them. You always have to be there when needed, remember: when needed. You're not needed all the time, you're only assuming. Have I said mothers? Well, fathers make the same mistake. And there's one thing more: we parents will never stop worrying. But we had better not showing that to our kids. We simply have to live with it. A calculated risk we have decided to accept, the very day we decided to become parents. This is why I completely agree with your last decision. Good luck and keep to it!
Is it at all possible for you to homeschool?
Zorin: of course mothers are oveprotective...but you should see Maya's father!
And about homeschooling - I think it is not possible to homeschool in Israel (as far as I know, according to the law you have to send your kids at school). Anyway, for Maya is important now to be among Hebrew speakers, as I want her to know the language and she also loves being with kids, despite everything that happened...
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