Friday, December 11, 2009

Tell Me About Safe Places

Close to the last best place on earthImage by 2-Dog-Farm via Flickr

Good morning...I guess, or whatever...I am not in a very good mood today, so I'll just stay here for a while, whine and feel sorry for myself so that afterwards I'll be able to go on with my life.

So, I am TIRED. I didn't sleep well, actually, I hardly slept. I went to bed at about midnight, after re-reading Sophie Kinsela's "Can You Keep A Secret?" and at 3 o'clock in the morning I woke up startled, with my heart pounding. I am a very light sleeper and every blasted noise wakes me up. Some street thugs, under our window, were quarelling, shouting, killing each other, God knows what else. So I had one of my panic attacks, the ones that just come at you in the middle of the night and I just sat there, hypervantilating and doing breathing exercises until I calmed down a bit. Then I stuffed my ears with ear-plugs and tried to get some sleep...Yes, right...my mind just went over and over the question :"Is there somewhere a safe place, on this damned Earth?"

You know, somewhere where you don't have to be afraid that you'll be killed, mugged, raped, somewhere your kids can be safe and you don't have to lock your front door. Some place where people are nice and youngsters help old people to cross streets instead of pushing them away because they are too slow...Places that hold no secrets, no back-stabbing, only honest people, places witout politics and politicians, rich people and poor people, black and white.

Maybe I should refrase: "Is there a safe place at all on this Earth?" Because if it is, just tell me, and I'll be off...




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8 comments:

Marilyn said...

yes, there is...within each and every one of us, there is our haven. We can't look for safety in this world. Life comes with risk.

Alone in Holy Land said...

Marilyn, you were supposed to be the one that delivers the good news....

Angel said...

yes, there is. In appomattox Virginia they don't lock their doors, in parts of Alaska there are are safe places that still live the old life, There are safe places, and safe havens, We have to believe because if we don't what else is there?
I am so Because when there really is not a safe place, when you cannot even imagine a safe place either inside of yourself or outside then that is the end of hope then what else is there?

Alone in Holy Land said...

Thank you Angel...so I am off to...Alaska?!

~ Mama said...

life here in PA is very quiet and safe, but people are still crazy no matter where you go. Hope you sleep better tonight:)

Marilyn said...

Ramona...you missed it. There was good news in what I was saying. Within you is safety so that so matter where you go in the world...you are safe. I don't travel the world in fear or anxiety...if I did I would have never left home at 17 years of age. If I did...I could have not survived 20 years of military service. If I did, I would have never travelled to the many countries and cities of this world I have been to.

Life is risk. Safety is within. It goes to how you look at the world; with fear...or with love. That is good news.

Robin said...

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I don't blame you at all. I sure understand about panic attacks although I don't have the reasons you do, I've had times in my life when they were a constant companion.
Prayers for you today, holding you tenderly in my heart and praying for your safety and peace...
Robin
All Things Heart and HOme

Alone in Holy Land said...

Robin, thank you for your kind words!