Sunday, March 14, 2010

I Finally Found Myself

A Yin & Yang symbol surrounded by the 'ba gua'...Image via Wikipedia

It is Sunday evening already?!
Time flies, it realy does...I don't even know when I posted on the blog last time, as I've been all wrapped up in something else lately...
Well, I just put aside my superstitions and picked up the novel writing where I left it when Maya fell ill...And I have to say, my God, I've written this past days and I am still in full inspirational mode. So, until it'll last, I'll keep writing. I have also to do a lot of research for my book, being a former journalist and a damn perfectionist too I try to be as acurrate as possible when I state facts. It is hard work for me, believe me, because I am writing in English and English is not my native language. So, sometimes I have to stop and write down something in Romanian and then try to find the best translation in English. It usually happens with expressions, proverbs and such, things that don't have a "word by word" translation. But you know what? I am having a lot of fun! First of all, I am doing it for myself,to prove than I am able to do it. Secondly, I am a complete different person when I am in the process of writing, I am the real me. Because under the surface, inside my skin I carry with me two different personalities: the day by day one - mother, wife, friend, housekeeper, cleaner, cook etc and the writer one, the one that lives in another dimension, the spiritual one. And I cannot function only with my mundane personality, I need the other one to manifest itself, otherwise I am lost, not being complete...a sort of yin and yang dwelling inside my soul, interdependent and necessary.
And it doesn't matter how this venue will end, meanwhile the feeling is great. And that's important. Because I finally found myself...and I am not letting me go...
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5 comments:

Sharnanigans said...

HOORAY!!!! I am so happy to hear this Ramona - keep it coming!

Sari said...

Beautiful! And so very happy for you for finding the piece in you that brings such joy. I can just read it in your writing and I am smiling for you friend :)

My only question is can we pre-order your book...? :)

Thinking of you and relishing in your energy.

Katherine Jenkins said...

Hi Ramona...keep going..I know this book wants to come out. Keep your writer persona alive! Congratulations!

Alone in Holy Land said...

I cried when I read your comments, I really did.
Thank you for your support, I know I need it.
Oh, Sari,you'll have your copy free of charge...hopefully...
xxxxxx

Aine Butler-Smith said...

Wonderful Ramona. As a mother of three, I completely understand the compartments we find ourselves in with our very demanding role of mother compartment having a tendency to take over. Having one book published, I can tell you it takes a lot of energy and focus, so stick with it. Even if it is small steps at first, if you are energized by the writing, and it sounds like you have the right focus, just to focus on the writing and the content, you will make it.
Even though motherhood is demanding, we have to carve out time for ourselves, it is paramount to holding onto our sanity.

Aine