I am a Creature of the Night

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Now that Maya is feeling better I can return to my normal life, I can return to blogging. I missed it, but I didn't have time to even think about it much, besides how to get down Maya's fever and how to make her to feel better...Thank God she is feeling better now, I was desperate, it just kills me not to be able to help her...
But no brooding upon this subject anymore, I am now busy looking after her, as she is her usual self.
You must be thinking that I have a lot of free time as a staying at home mum. Strangely enough, that is what I thought of other mums before...but not anymore. The truth is during the day I barely have time for myself...From morning till evening, I am with Maya or doing household chores...I am not able to aproach the computer anymore, as Maya discovered CBeebies, Starfall and BoowaKwala - three sites for kids, with loads of games (Starfall is actually for learning letters and reading, from this site Maya learned all the letters) so when we're not outside or crafting or reading stories or cooking together or...she is at the computer.
So the only time that I have for myself is at night, when Maya is sleeping...I am lucky that she goes to sleep at 7.30 in the evening (she doens't nap at noon) at sleeps until 7 or 8 o' clock in the morning. After I clean the house, wash the dishes, take the dog out for a walk, I am FREE !!! I read, blog, watch TV, write, do my nails, color my hair...I stay awake until late, and of course in the morning when Maya wakes up, I am still sleepy. The great thing is that on Saturdays my husband stays with her in the morning, and this gives me a couple of hours of sleep... Sometimes I am so tired that at aproximately 2 or 3 o clock in the afternoon I feel that I am melting with tiredness. Sometimes I try to convince Maya to lay in bed near me for a few minutes and watch a bit of TV. I am not in favour of putting kids in front of the TV just for the sake of it, but it is 15 minutes of TV for Maya or sudden death by exhaustion for me...
I like the night time. It is (almost) quiet, as during day time is very noisy and I have the house for myself, nobody nags me or asks for food or to iron something or to take her to the bathroom or to wash her teeth or to fix some food. I can pretend I am alone in the whole world and that I can do whatever pleases me...What a feeling! I am not a mother or a wife anymore. I am just myself, Ramona, and it gives me great pleasure to spend some time only with myself, at times I simply forget who I am , who I used to be...