Searching for...True Love

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Today my sister and I watched "Twilight" - the movie (after Stephenie Meyer's book, needless to say). For me it was the third time, for my sister, the first. I knew almost all the replies by heart, as I read the books four times and I am currently listening to the audio version.

I just love the story in them, what can I do? Whenever I see a movie like "Twilight" or read a book with a similar theme I always feel that this is the right medicine for my heart...Even if afterwards, at the end of the movie or when I finish the book, I feel sad...And I ask myself the same question...

How many human beings (or other earthly creatures) can say they've known love, true love? And I mean that pure, unspoiled, shared , altruistic love; mind blowing, soul shattering, earth moving love. The kind of love you read about in books or see in movies. Does this feeling really exist? How many of you people can say that you've experienced it?

Can a simple, average, normal person know such love? Or is this only for higher beings, sofisticated minds, with souls capable of such strong feelings?

I have no idea.

Don't get me wrong. I had my share of love in this world. I loved and I was loved in return. I remember how the first love literally burned my soul, leaving me baren and selfless for some time. I remember that first kiss when I felt the ground moving under my soles and wings flapping over my head. I remember the guy that loved me and stayed outside my house in the rain just to see me for a moment at the window. I remember how it felt when the man I loved betrayed my feelings, sleeping with other women. I remember my last love, obedient, wise, sensible, the one upon which you build a family.

But never ever had I felt the perfect moment of harmony between me and another soul, never ever had a celestial orchestra sang a hymn of praise when we kissed...

So I wonder...

Is love a real and true feeling? Or just the figment of some writer's imagination, or maybe God's best joke?

Is it possible for two souls to feel and experience it? Forever? And I don't mean love as infatuation, chemistry, hormones, passion, I mean love as sacrifice, self-denial, devotion. As in willingly giving your life in order for the other to survive... And when I write this, I'm thinking of motherly love. A mother would give her life for her children. I know I would. And maybe a father would do the same. I know my husband would (but not for me, though).

And all this leaves me even more confused, with more unanswered questions. So you tell me, my friends and readers:What is love and does it really exist?

Oh, I'm sure I'm not the first one to ask these questions. Then, would you be so kind and point me to the answers?

P.S. Some time ago I asked my husband, whom I dearly love, if he loves me...He answered :"Of course I love you! You are the mother of my daughter!" (quod erat demonstrandum!)